It’s only been a few months since I rejoined the social networking site Facebook. I first gave it up back in 2014 and I’ll be honest, I filled the empty space it left in my life with a blog.
I started my first blog over on blogger and that was called KaboodleMum too. I started that well before I left Facebook but it never really stuck, I tried to write about the things I wasn’t told during pregnancy and it flopped pretty quickly. Once I left Facebook, and discovering WordPress by accident, I decided to try again with a blog on WordPress, and as time went by, what was once a space I ranted about how my pregnancy wasn’t what the books said it would be, became the home for our family related posts.
I started with the idea that I would write stories, share our moments and write little letters to Willow which she would then be able to read when she’s older. Over time, I started using the space here on KaboodleMum to fill with things that I enjoy. I’ve written poems, I’ve shared my photography and I’ve added countless other ‘features’ that I’ve since disowned.
After even more time, I thought I’d be able to make a living, or even a small sideline from blogging and I have since been trying to achieve that. It’s come as a cost though; firstly, I have swayed away from what my initial intention was and in writing about our life in they way I had hoped. Secondly, I have repeatedly spread myself thin when it comes to social networking, and blogging.
I can’t tell you how many times I have signed up for different social netowrking sites, only to forget about them three days later. I’ve also started maybe 10 other blogs which have also been neglected and forgotten.
The most recent one being – going back to Facebook.
I’m going to be honest, I didn’t want to go back onto Facebook, I truly didn’t. But following the advice of so many ‘how to be a better blogger’ and ‘how to be a serious blogger’ articles – and with it being a suggestion on the Blogging U courses, I decided to give it a go.
The thing I find when it comes to spreading myself too thin, something which I have written about before now, is that I get inspired and motivated to start these ‘pages’ and ‘blogs’ and think, “yes! This is a super cool idea which I love” and I run with it, full pelt at lightening speed only to realise a few days or weeks later that I can’t run that fast all the time. I can’t have a blog for being a mum, a blog for being a fangirl, a craft blog, a crochet blog, a YouTube channel for our stuff, a YouTube Channel for kids stuff, separate Twitter, Instagram and Facebook pages for all these places and anything else that comes to mind when I’m setting up these ‘ideas’.
So I did stop with all the others and tried to concentrate on KaboodleMum and including the things I like here too. It went well and I was happy, then life happens and illness and job losses and Facebook.
Let me tell you how I feel about Facebook; I loath it. I don’t just dislike it, or think it’s a waste of time, no, I passionately despise it with every fibre of my being.
And here’s another thing I’ll tell you about Facebook, it’s makes me incredibly unhappy. I don’t know exactly what it is about the site that makes me so unhappy but it does. I thought after 2 years things would be a little different and I would enjoy the feeling of being back and it was nice, for about 48 hours. After that, I slipped back into the old ‘scroll, scroll, scroll’ mindless action of Facebook. I barely comment on anything other than crochet groups and blogging groups, I’ve tried to not update my status and I’ve noticed that most of the content I do post, is cross posted from Instagram and here.
As a result, I have been negcletful of my blog, and I’ve not been keeping up with my friends blogs like I used to, and it’s made me frustrated and angry because I do, genuinely love their blogs.
So, last week I announced that I would be leaving again and a couple of friends commented saying not to, a few blogging groups offered advice about sticking with it as it will be worth it in the end and their words worked. I figured, since I have initiated a new group, Pinterest group board and Twitter chat using Facebook as the central hub, it would be rude of me to give it up. And I wrote about it yesterday on the KaboodleMum page and I gave it a chance. Many people would say that 24 hours is not a long time to give anything a chance, they would be right, it’s not. But I believe if I stay there any longer, I will continue to feel unhappy and by sticking to it, I am not giving myself a chance.
So I’m deactivating it, just like I did in 2014. I am going to find an admin for the Bloggers Corner group on Facebook but I will continue to manage the Pinterest and Twitter accounts for bloggers corner.
When I had only Instagram, Twitter and KaboodleMum, I was happier. I was very content with how things were going, I was confident in my writing and enjoyed doing what I do.
I don’t know why I can’t get along with Facebook, but I’m not going to stick around in the Hope that I will ‘like’ it one day. Twitter is a fast paced place that is ever changing and engaging, Instagram is a beautiful place full of beautiful things. KaboodleMum is my home away from home, my baby, my hobby.
I don’t want to fall out of love with KaboodleMum because I can’t fall in love with Facebook.
It makes more sense for me to go back to how things were, to be happier.
I’ve started going back through all of my posts, reading them and finding my voice again. I’ve also been really trying to clean up behind the scenes due to some errors and missing images, lots of my posts come up with X’s where there should be images. I’m hoping that tying up all the loose ends behind the scenes, getting rid of all my abandoned categories and forgotten features and creating a space where KaboodleMum goes back to being the place I wanted it to be, I can truly get back into my blogging style. The sooner I do it the better.
I’m also going to stop chasing a blogging-career. I want to be a happy blogger before I become a professional blogger so I’m not giving up on that dream, but I am going to focus a little more on what I have, instead of what I hope to have.
This post is a long one, so if you’re still here reading then thanks!
Do you have any similar dislikes when it comes to social media and networking sites?